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Wednesday, July 14, 2010

haha. stopped bloggin for 1 yr plus n i stil rem my pwd.. so puttin e blog here still helps, cos i can stil vent my angers here when i feel reali bad.. well i reali didn't noe things will turn so bad. isit my pms or m i just plain tinkin too much? been so unhappy recently. wif so many things. dat i blocked my fb profile from every1. luckily i have 2 days trainin.. cos i didn't reali noe how to face every1.. taking a break from work, seein e usual faces.. is actuali quite a blessing. i don have to act dat im happy in front of dem, or show dem my true emotions. i have been showin my temper n pullin a face too often.. n i don tink its a gd thing. i hate to flare up. but some under circumstances i just canot stand it. its such a dilemma, n contradict, but still... made new frens during the course.. feels so gd.. cos dey dono me well.. n i can jolly show my truth feelings. or rather, be a facade at e same time. i have no stress wif dem, don have to tink abt anything. hence i let out the true me, but at e same time. dey wouldnt noe if im hiding myself too. not like e usual faces or my close frens.. whether dey ask me wat happen or not, i feel uncomfy too. sometimes just feel like being alone. all e shits happenin at e same time, i wonder m i still reali so suay. well, i did something so evil ytd. i cant believe i did dat too. cos dats just not me. but somehow; i felt i was another person when i did it.. its like, i felt i changed totally. another person inside me. well, such things happen once enuf le. cos i don like myself being like dat too. so pls, don force me to.

He brought me to e seaside.. seeing me so upset.. it was peaceful.. we drank some beer, dropped some tears, talked things tru, looked at e stars... 1st time bringin me to such place.. guess both of us are too tired of all e shits recently.. needed a break.

i hope things go well for me.. i don wish to hide anything anymore. i just wan to be myself.

- Hearts All

♥About Me♥
♡NickNames: Sannie, 13, SanSan, Mao
♡D.O.B: 3rd December 1985
♡Likes to: Sing, Mahjong, Club, Pub, Eat, Shop, Sleep, Chat
♡Fav Colors: Pink, Black, White, Silver

♥WishList♥
♡1 ~~My Hair to faster grow longer n nice nice~~
♡2 My Mummy & Daddy to b healthy oways n live to a ripe old age
♡3 To be happy everyday =)
♡4 Gucci(Handbag/Bag/Wallet/Clutch)
♡5 ~~Heart & Key Necklaces~~
♡6 ~~Have a nice 21st Bday~~
♡7 ~~Haf a Merry Merry Xmas!~~
♡8 ~~Buy New Year Clothes for 2007~~
♡9 ~~Have a Happy Happy New Year!~~
♡10 ~~Ayumi Hamasaki's A Best 2 (White)~~
♡11 Find my new path in life
♡12 ~~Guess Straw Bag~~
♡13 ~~Guess Wallet~~
♡14 ~~Perfumes n Perfume Miniatures!~~
♡15 ~~Coach(Handbag/Bag/Wallet/Clutch)~~
♡16 Nintendo DS Lite
♡17 ~~Sony Ericsson W580I (Pink)/Samsung U700~~
♡18 ~~A job dat i will love~~
♡19 ~~LV Damier Collection~~
♡20 ~~Bling Bling Watch~~
♡21 Him

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