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My Stories..

Thursday, January 24, 2008

Sometimes.. u don try too hard in tryin to hide some facts.. or doin things in a roundabout way sayin dat u did all dis for who or who, y u do dat.. it jus doesnt work. e more u try to make things seem wat dey r not, e more things got found out n it jus look so ugly on u.. B wat u r.. deres no point makin up sooo many diff accs to check on somethin rite?? u tod ur gd, but deres oways some1 beta.. e loopholes got found out so suddenly n i jus found it damn hilarious. LOL. omg.. jus stop wat ur tryin to do ba.. no matter wat ur ultimate aim is.. why r things at dis stage.. jus rem.. U R E ONE WHO RUINED EVERYTHING.. in ur OWN hands.. ur own FUTURE.. so stop pushin it ard.. things could b very fine den.. but....... n den u ......... sigh. trust betrayed like nearly a dozen times??? nah. i dono wat to do wif dat anymore.. dis is jus...

ridiculous.

- Hearts All

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

Ooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhh im terribly sorry to make u guys worry for me recently.. i noe my MSN nick & facebook has been kinda cui n so depressed n de-moralised dat some of u guys actuali don dared to chat wif me n been tryin all kinds of tricks to make me cheer up heee.. thanks for everythin reali.. some v unexpected frens tried to make me happy too.. i appreciate all dis!

在这个夜里，我更加了解了我自己..

i realised y i oways couldnt let go things.. i finali realised after my chat wif him.. i need ppl to trash things out wif me n tell me all e reasons to satisfy my curiosity.. i nv knew myself as some1 who jus wan to noe y y y y y y dis n y dat n y the hell like dat n when i finali got to noe everythin.. its easier for me... much easier i shd say.. its like a big big big weight off my chest!! no matter how much dey might haf hurt me b4.. but i still choose to believe dat.. dey r not bad by nature.. n i don regret wat i did for dem..

i've got too many gd frens advisin me.. too blessed in a way.. n sudd i m jus lost for words..

lettin go is not easy.. time is e best med. though deres still dis lil part of me which stil hopes for.. ... .....

- Hearts All

Monday, January 21, 2008

I can onli guess im 1 of e last fews to noe.. or actually, i'm e 1st few to noe.. but i chose to believe wateva was told to me.. cos i trust e person too much.. but y do e ppl i oways trust OWAYS lie to me?!!? wtf. got nth to do isit. to make up wif dat 1 lie, u told more n more n more.. which i refused to believe so but... sigh. YYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY. reali hate it.. argh. for my own gd? nahhhh.

I tod all dis haf ended.. y isit comin back??? nooooooooo don come n haunt me...

N im reali glad he called. =)

- Hearts All

Thursday, January 17, 2008

Nothing is perfect.. nothing lasts... & nothing is forever.

- Hearts All

Wednesday, January 09, 2008

Today's e 9th day since my last day at scs.. hahahah! been relaxin at home n jus back from my Genting trip!! it was fun.. cos deres my 'papa' who made me luf at e slightest thing possible.. lol! n i've got great company like Joy, Ivan n Jia Wei.. too bad bestie's not dere!

On e 1st day when we reached Genting.. got a surprise from seaweed! he came to find us when we were waitin for our turn to take e room keys.. so Doug reali did drive him n Joe up! WEeeeeeeee~ havin dem ard makes things more fun as they're a noisy n funny bunch.. hehehe.. ate, den went to casino le.. went to e 1 where e bets r so big.. lost like 300 ringit.. hahahah. sad. played til e wee hrs.. n psychoed Doug n gang to return to Spore on e next day.. went to heat up Doug's engine.. den went to Casino again i tink.. lol.. but is another 1.. won back abit.. said hao hao to meet at 9am in e mornin to go to e theme park.. but we kept lai chuang.. LOL. in e end dey went back earli in e mornin.. left e 5 of us, we went to eat, den to theme park.. idiotic thing is i haven got to play my roller coaster den it started rainin!! argh. n i was in e rain for like 1/2 hr? lucky i did not get sick. hoho.

So we proceeded to e Casino again.. hahaha.. won back abit again.. stayed til mornin like 5am omg.. my eye bags were all out by dat time.. hahaha.. but saw a few gd lookin guys dere HAWHAHHA. n funny thing is we made frens in e casino.. tink we too frenly le.. we talked to almost all e trainee croupiers dere.. all their pattern machiam Ivan like dat! lol. abit styled hair n wear specs de.. lol. our tables r oways filled wif fun n laughter!! which is damn funny.. cos e casino is supposed to b those stern n serious place.. den we make so much noise dere.. even e trainees keep smilin n laughin at our jokes.. n got dis uncle told us he nv like dat b4.. lose money lose til so happy. wahhahhaha. dere was afew trainees whose hands r not so lucky de den we keep seein his nametag n followin dem to other tables when dey change shifts.. so funny la. wahhaha. made such a joke dere.. though we all lose money dere.. but i guess im still happy to b spendin time dere =) anw fyi... i lost a total of 180 ringit hahaha.

Nth much to say on e 3rd day.. woke up n check out of hotel.. roamed ard shopped abit n ate BK.. hahaha. it was rainin again.. big rain dis time.. freezin. took a coach at 3.30pm.. reached spore at 9+ 10.. shagged!

Anw im missing Genting aredi.. hehe.

Alrite i guess i'll jus rest for awhile more b4 findin job.. hehee.. i love my life now.. no stress nth!! but of cos.. i miss u guys. i noe u all miss me too awhhahhaha. =X shall arrange some time to meet up wif ya al soon!

Will things turn out alrite?

- Hearts All

♥About Me♥
♡NickNames: Sannie, 13, SanSan, Mao
♡D.O.B: 3rd December 1985
♡Likes to: Sing, Mahjong, Club, Pub, Eat, Shop, Sleep, Chat
♡Fav Colors: Pink, Black, White, Silver

♥WishList♥
♡1 ~~My Hair to faster grow longer n nice nice~~
♡2 My Mummy & Daddy to b healthy oways n live to a ripe old age
♡3 To be happy everyday =)
♡4 Gucci(Handbag/Bag/Wallet/Clutch)
♡5 ~~Heart & Key Necklaces~~
♡6 ~~Have a nice 21st Bday~~
♡7 ~~Haf a Merry Merry Xmas!~~
♡8 ~~Buy New Year Clothes for 2007~~
♡9 ~~Have a Happy Happy New Year!~~
♡10 ~~Ayumi Hamasaki's A Best 2 (White)~~
♡11 Find my new path in life
♡12 ~~Guess Straw Bag~~
♡13 ~~Guess Wallet~~
♡14 ~~Perfumes n Perfume Miniatures!~~
♡15 ~~Coach(Handbag/Bag/Wallet/Clutch)~~
♡16 Nintendo DS Lite
♡17 ~~Sony Ericsson W580I (Pink)/Samsung U700~~
♡18 ~~A job dat i will love~~
♡19 ~~LV Damier Collection~~
♡20 ~~Bling Bling Watch~~
♡21 Him

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