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My Stories..

Wednesday, March 28, 2007

Feelins of sadness, hurt, unhappiness and anger is somethin we will experience in all parts of our lives.. nonetheless dere r happiness, love n bliss too. Many things happen in life which make us v wu nai, but we can choose diff ways to look at things.. its hard, but we haf no choice.. tinkin e negative way everyday hurts more.. not onli does it affect ur performance at work, it affects e ppl ard u too.. bracin up n look at things in e positive way simply makes u reali feel alot happier.. instead of feelin unhappy everyday, might as well try to act happy (it reali wil hlp u feel happy) and tink of e ppl who r dere for u durin dis time..

oways in my point, i wan to lead a happy life.. a happy life w/o stress, worries, hurt n away from illnesses.. but as i grow older, things don reali go my way.. n when dat happens, i couldn't take it n at times i felt so depressed i tod of doin foolish things.. its been reali crappy for me.. i must learn to take things in my stride n keep calm at times.. look at e whole picture b4 decidin to get angry or such..

dis entry is sooo super orbit.. don like to say such things lo. but its reali true dat u shd treasure everythin ard u lo.. it makes a diff in life... ok i shd stop dwellin on it..

Jus hopes dat deres a turnin point if my life, which wil jus make everythin soo wonderfull like wat i've been dreamin abt!!

- Hearts All

Chanced upon dis Fann Wong mtv.. e show Jing Zhong Ren(Beautiful Illusions).. OMG.. i reali absolutely love her to e max!! how can any1 get sooooo pretty? Liked her since pri 5.. its like 10 yrs aredi!! WAAAAA. i'm goin gaga over her~~ who has dat song? pls pls send mee!! tag my board if u haf..

- Hearts All

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

Being happy makes my appetite beta n intend to eat more..
So shd i be happy anot?

Actualli e day did not reali start out gd.. trains were so jammed up dat i onli got up on e 2nd train at jurong east, hence makin me stand under e sun for 5 mins.. its sucha sunnnny day today.. inside e 2nd train, i was soooo cramped up dat i couldnt even lift up my hands to sms.. n couldnt able to catch a ride cos of e train delay.. walked 15 mins under e scorching sun again to work.. omg..

Reached office kana bombed.. was told to test merge FIN.. but e FINs werent ready yet, den was asked to test out SD form.. in e end realised some1 tested le so i no need to test le.. dats like 1 hr gone..

Later went to carry a whole box of test specs from WP's...

Not much things to make me happy abt.. but how come im in high spirits today?

~Lovin my Guess Bag.. ~

- Hearts All

Monday, March 26, 2007

I don wanna b an angel,
nor do i wanna b a devil.

I jus wanna b a mortal,
a normal human being.

- Hearts All

Friday, March 23, 2007

time for a short post in office!! its friii today! n i haf nooo programss!! dat is up til now.. hahaha.. kinda used to it le.. weekends bein at home.. but gd thing is deres still mj..! my favvv past time..

well, got so depressed ytd i wanted to slp n nv wake up... but i kept wakin up almost every hr.. to find dat im stil v upset n tears kept rollin down my cheeks.. refused to talk to any1 ytd.. til mum realised deres somethin wrong n says to haf a family talk now of dis days to understand wat each of us r goin tru.. wat the.. hai.

luckily today woke up n is stil ok.. except for e fact dat my lens r makin me dizzy.. convention at scs today was ok.. e food was quite nice..! like e prawn thingy n another fried thingy.. tooo bad those 2 food r gone in a flash! ppl kop all!! saddded. had a spring roll n a piece of carrot cake for lunch.. appetite is real weird nowadays.. i totally cant gauge when im hungry n when im full!! i can feel im so damn full now til im pukin, but e next hr i hungry le.. n i tod im stil hungry after my meal but awhile later i feel so damn full again... its like a routine! =\

- Hearts All

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

WAT IS DIS??! fukin pissed off..

- Hearts All

wow.! signed up for chocopets.. so fun! err mayb not reali but its somethin new to me n my blog n its sooo cute my panda! hehehe. xue tong's rabbit n bi ling's teddy bear.. wahhahah! i jus mistook it for a cat.. err sorry.. ehheehee.. gonna play wif it now!!

- Hearts All

Monday, March 19, 2007

In office.. so tired.. nearli fall aslp lor! but today canot rest in office cos user in front of me n boss in e room oso.. don wanna take e risk dat sudd she stand up n saw me closin my eyes.. >.<

Fri played mj again.. wif Joy Joe n hong.. wa so hiong lor.. 20 40, fei n zi mo $1.. was winnin ard $30+ durin my 2nd or izit 3rd round ba.. last round was quite dot as i nv reali hu.. in e end lost $2 lor.. but i realised i gave Joy $3 chips for my mc chicken burger so i tink in e end i won $1.. lol! but poor poor joy.. lost ard $70 i tink.. dats quite alot.. n countin e day b4's loss to joe.. hai... poor ger.. hope her luck change for e beta!

Sat n sun was restin at home.. for 2 whole days man.. rest n rest n watchin tv.. so sian.. chalet in 2 weeks time.. finali somethin to look forward to again.. e gentin trip is off.. -_- all bcos of indecisivenes.. dots.. hope he will reply me n resume back to his normal self again lor.. i foresee e future.. hahaha..

goin over to cwp later to haf a look at my Guess bag.. how i pray i'll b able to get it at a 20% discount! sighs.. cant get it at 30%.. onli left 20% de hope.. 10% is too less ba... saddd.. metro card, pls pls pls work!! additional 10% more!! *prays..

- Hearts All

Thursday, March 15, 2007

everything's startin to get so bland.. seems like things r not improvin.. mayb its gonna b all cuiiiiii leee... i noe sometimes e things i say don make sense.. cos i jus convey out my feelins.. all mixed up in 1 bunch so its ok if no1 understands.. i post entries to make myself feel beta.. its okie if no1 noes wat im sayinnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn arrr useless stupid post. im goin crazeeeeeeeee. Soooooooooooooooo BLanddddddddddddd.

Doc says i haf sensitive nose.. so i shd avoid air con, dust.. n he ask me to abstain from 4 ranges of food.. Peanuts, Seafoods, Egg and Diary products.. WAT?? i tink i haf eggs nearli everyday lo.. n i love prawns(w/o shells) n i like cheese as well.. how m i gonnaa liveee..

e world is changinnnnnnnnnnnnnn, revolvin ard me...

- Hearts All

Monday, March 12, 2007

A song to heal a broken heart..

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背叛
作詞：阿丹/鄔裕康　作曲：曹格　編曲：凃惠源

雨　不停落下來　花　怎麼都不開
儘管我細心灌溉　你說不愛就不愛　我一個人　欣賞悲哀

愛　只剩下無奈　我　一直不願再去猜
鋼琴上黑鍵之間　永遠都夾著空白　缺了一塊　就不精采

緊緊相依的心如何Say goodbye 你比我清楚還要我說明白
愛太深會讓人瘋狂的勇敢　我用背叛自己　完成你的期盼

把手放開不問一句 Say goodbye 當作最後一次對你的溺爱
冷冷清清淡淡今後都不管　只要你能愉快

心　有一句感慨　我　還能夠跟誰對白
在你關上門之前　替我再回頭看看　那些片段　還在不在

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好悲傷 ..真的好悲傷 ..

- Hearts All

Why m i receivin 1 bad news a day.. or mayb more? I reali feel all e things dat i did r not worth it.. Who is appreciatin? Who is dere to console me? When im sick? NAH. He's doin fine now, im glad.But i nv expected it.. Kinda hurts.. But its alrite.. it will go over soon.. Everywher im goin, i met unhappiness.. No matter who it is.. e ppl who r close to me.. Almost all of u r hurtin me..

N dis person out dere u noe who u r.. i noe u read my blog, check my frenster n everythin.. U like to ACT like me.. everythin i write u copy me.. til e extent it makes me feel disgusted.. don u haf a mind on ur own? or mayb u wanna achieve something dat u cant do it on ur own? I haf treated u like a fren, but stop doin those things..

I cant take things so lightly..

I wan to gif up everything, n lead a new life..

- Hearts All

Thursday, March 08, 2007

I jus don understand y things keep happenin to me.. Bad bad things which made me so unhappy, i cried almost everyday. WTH? all dis things i haf no control over n i cant hlp. Sometimes bein nice to ppl may not b a gd thing. Ppl take u for granted n everythin jus turn against u. N i reali don understand y can he even do dat. Its jus hurts BIGG time man. Reali nv expected wat i jus gone tru. Y r dere so many meanies in dis world. HATE dem.

Yes. Jus luf at me. Feelin so dejected dat i feel like killin myself.

Addin on, those F@#@%#$ ah pehs in e mrt. stop lettin ur eyes wonder ard! v nice to c meh? feelin like slappin each of u on e face wif my heels.

AS if dats not enuf, stupid nose is bleedin ARGH.

Mayb e world is reali endin. I don mind it though,since my wish is to b happy everyday, but now im not.

Not at all.

- Hearts All

Tuesday, March 06, 2007

Post of today is abt the ongoin Genting Trip.. wOOOO! so long nv been to holiday! its time i took some rest away from my work n all e things dat im facin ba.. lookin forward to it, was plannin e itinerary.. hope everythin go smoothly! i don mind goin to other countries too.. jus wanna get out of dis sad place..

Since CNY is over n i've nth much to look forward to.. dere comes my great chance to put my yearnins on.. GENTING! IM COMIINNNNnn!

- Hearts All

Monday, March 05, 2007

Phew~ A moment's rest from work.. It has been tirin for the past few work days as i haf to rush to hand up some work.. N dere r jus more n more work pilin up! Wonder y all e work is thrown to me..

Last weekend was great! Though Sun stayed at home.. But Fri n Sat was fun.. Fri was ktvin wif colleagues.. Shalrine sang quite nice, her voice is soft n sweet but dono y she wun zao sia.. Joyce's singin seemed to haf improved too.. mayb e 1st time went ktv wif her she shy don dare sing, now she sang well! Loud n clear! Wendy me n Wan ting played e S.H.E roles, singin e parts of Selina Hebe n Ella.. SO funny! WAHAHAHA. n of cos Yi wei sang afew songs onli, oways like dat.. heha.. it was great fun!

Sat was house warmin day n bai nianin.. But decided not to go house warmin cos sis's goin Angela's mini concert at e Dragonfly.. WAO imagine my sis go clubbin.. Somore i haf not even been to St James b4! SAD. So off i went to Sir's hse.. played black jack dere, played wif ABC (his baby ger's name).. Won $20.. ard evenin time went over to Joe's.. played blackjack again.. Lost $10.. e rest r abt to leave, but me n Joy wanted to play MJ.. so dere we started our MJ session again! Played Fei.. V nice! keep gettin 2 Feis n zi mo.. hehe.. Won $20 again.. den a leg is leavin le.. so me n Joy try to find e last leg.. Finali i tod of some1.. who lives in sembawang... SIM LIM! whahhaa.. den psychoed him to Joe's hse.. their house is onli diff by 6 blks, n he claims he doesnt noe how to get dere n stuff.. so when he was comin over, me n Joy went to buy dinner for dat orbit JOE! PIG. whahaha.. den played 20 40 MJ again, w/o Fei, but wif zi mo add $1.. dat round nv reali zi mo le.. no $1 booo.. Chew Ling (Joe's sis) replaced him after dat, cos he says he's tired but he kept comin back to disturb us!! ORBIT! den luck was goin downstream.. Played til mornin 7+.. Lucky last round won a 4 tai in e end lose $2 onli. whahhha.. joy n i went to take a cab home lor..

Though dere r quite some unhappiness in btw my weekends.. but overall i still enjoy it.. cos i absolutely marvellously LOVE MJ! wahahhaha.!!

- Hearts All