Sunday, October 21, 2007
i cant take e fact dat i was lied to.. it jus hurts so much.. n i hate liars! y do u break my trust to u once n again? m i jus so bloody foolish or dat im darn it stupid?!?! to believe again n again. it doesnt onli apply to 1. to 2, 3, or even 4. i don wan to change myself to some1 whos doubtin n suspicious of every lil thing now n den n get so paranoid over everythin.. im becomin like dis soon! oh goodness, no more tortures like dat k! some things jus cant express in words.. ppl ask me y i've become not-so-cheerful anymore.. even some1 in frenster msged me.. askin y is my life so messed up, n dat he has oways like my smile in pictures... im reali grateful for dat concern of urs.. i don wan to grow up. e older i get, e more hurt i experience everytime. i don even understand myself now.. oh pls .. jus spare me all dis. i wan to lead jus a normal life, wif great frens, n understandin family n a gd bf. dats all i wan.- Hearts All