My Stories..
Thursday, November 30, 2006
I reali dono wats happenin n i don understand.. i don wanna hurt ppl.. but y does ppl keep hurtin me? n when its time to forgive.. something will happen again.. sigh.
- Hearts All
Sunday, November 26, 2006
Sucha Loser. Its breakin into pieces.
- Hearts All
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
i dono y sometimes jus cant stand dem leh.. like bein weird n everythin lo.. wait here n dere.. c le abit . ba.. ahhahha.. though not v happy wif her somtimes.. but i guess she still haf her reasons for doin so ba.. or mayb izit she jus du lan cos dat time i ___________ . wahhahahha! i told myself to change my temper.. today has been a reali sucky day.. but i acted so well in front of every1 dat im happy n i don feel too bad anymore.. hahaha.
chattin wif daphne online.. realised she's reali 1 who haf ambitions n everything.. determined.. i believe 1 day she will b a successful person in life ba.. shes changed alot too.. matured in tinkin now.. must learn from her liao.. hehehe. al e best!
- Hearts All
Saturday, November 18, 2006
Alrite 1 down.. haf decided not to open any chalet anymore for my Bday.. =) few more things on my mind to tink of, to stress about, to consider.. So many things happenin ard me.. In my office.. so so many things.. So many rumours hehe.. But can agar guess wats happenin ba.. Next week onwards gonna start wakin up damn earli liao.. sigh.. 6.30am.. sure get deprived of slp..
Is still upset dis few days ba.. throwin my nonsense ard n gettin paranoid at every small thing.. pissed.. wateva.. i hope i can return to e normal me soon.. i don wanna things to b like dis.. i wanna b happy everyday..
I hate to c break ups.. Sigh.. i can jus feel e hurt from every break ups from my frens.. i cant hlp dem too.. but it seems to b occurin more frequent den eva.. so many frens bein single now.. i m v unhappy.. Sorry, i can jus lend u all a listenin ear..
Talkin abt happy things.. JB's weddin is tml.. kinda excited as i tink it is e 1st time i solely attend a wedding function without my parent's presence.. I will b goin wif my colleagues! i reali hope to c dem happily wedded oways.. n haf a baby soon to let me play wif.. hehe..
N company's DnD is on Mon.. Hope i will enjoy it too ba.. =)
Thanx Yi Wei, Jun Ming, BC, Pear for bein dere for me durin dis period of time.. Pear for encouragin me on, BC to hearin me out, Jun Ming for his concern in office, n Yi Wei to keep sendin me smses abt bein happy n stuff.. some is jus so funny.. lol.. thanx =)
- Hearts All
Friday, November 10, 2006
sigh.. e day i dread alot is approachin.. no1 will haf tod.. but yes, its e day when i turn 21.. 3rd Dec.. i've been to at least 10 bday celebrations dis yr.. n i tink ard 20 invitations.. so sorry for those dat i couldn't turn up.. cos reali bz.. every1's organisin chalets or bbqs for their bday.. 1 thing i don like is hassle.. yeah im real lazy.. but its like i cant celebrate it n i cant don celebrate it.. got it? cos its 21st.. n every1's doin something abt it.. except me, n mayb few other frens ba.. was tinkin of bookin a realli large VIP room at e ktv whereby i heard from pear, inside e room deres even a pool table.. but i guess e space will b quite limited or rather i m afraid few of my frens will b left out ba..
N 1 impt thing i feel uneasy abt.. is being e centre of attraction durin bdays ba.. i dono y i jus feel so damn pai seh when ppl sing bday song for me, when all focus their attention on me.. omg. i can tel u dat i will jus blush.. normalli e huaheefornth n hou lian pi de yisan will not come out on dat day ba.. it has been quite dreadful for my past bdays.. dono y on dat day, something sure make me unhappy.. n i guess ppl gettin bored durin my bday celebrations reali made me v guilty.. cos im not a gd host.. =( Cyn is holdin her bday party at a chalet on e 2nd, n kia fang's at her home on e 3rd.. i guess i cant go to fang's de ba.. its like celebratin my bday at her hse.. hahahah kinda funny.. but if i organise too, den mayb some of our frens will get torn btw goin to her party or mine.. omg. wat shd i do?
I don mind havin some gd suggestions on how to celebrate my bday =)
N i dono y im so useless.. ="(
- Hearts All
Sunday, November 05, 2006
I've had enough of everythin.
- Hearts All
Thursday, November 02, 2006
Wisdom Tooth Extraction:
Dentist asked me to haf a heavy breakfast.. mayb cos e painkillers will b v strong n need food for it to react ba.. but mornin i cant eat much.. so onli had ard half my noodles..
Reached dental ard 10.05 ba.. late abit for appointment le.. but ok la.. ahhaha. dad tried to bargain for a cheaper price.. but stil.. hmmm.. $704 for a single wisdom tooth.. + medication n x ray of cos, but e price is reali steep.. hai.. nvm.. den dad signed e papers bcos i m still under 21..
Dad left e dental, n i went into e room.. Doc explained to me about the details of e surgery n how will i feel durin it, jus alot of pressure.. and wat will happen after dat, mayb swollen of cheeks n numbness of lips bla bla.. i started to panic le..
I was given e blue robe to wear (doc says makes me look like 1 of dem -_-) n dark glasses to prevent hurtin my eyes from e light shone onto my face n mouth.. i was v afraid.. he asked me.. m i reaDy? den i started tearin.. dot.. i noe v useless la but reali scary ma.. den dey jus stood dere n waited for me to calm down.. i feel so pai seh lo den i tel e doc ok la u go ahead.. he asked me do i need slpin pills to calm myself down.. so i ate 2..
After a while doc asks me whether i feel beta.. but i say like still e same lor.. slpin pills haven take effect ba.. hahahah.. den he spray a chemical to numb my gums.. bitter bitter de.. i dono y i oways feel like pukin when dere r stuffs near my throat.. i beared wif it.. he den stuffed a gauze inside my mouth.. wa bth.. den he took it out n i vomitted into e rinse mouth de basin dere -_- sibeh pai seh.. den i controlled myself.. after dat d0no wat happened.. i vomitted out my noodles -_= WA KAO. sia suay. but onli a few strands of noodles WAHAHAHHAAH.
I took quite awhile to mentally prepare for e op.. i saw e doc holdin e syringe.. OMG. i panicked. i tried to move here n dere hahahaha.. den he bo bian.. keep talkin to me.. den i feel pai seh again to delay their time.. den i closed my eyes v v tight n let him poke e needle in lor.. i tink he injected a total of 4 - 7 needles.. alamak leh.. i can feel it la.. but i pinched myself n sing song to myself to divert my focus.. e nurse on e music.. i requested for 933 but she jus lufed n nv tune in leh..
After injection, doc tested my level of numbness in my gums.. started pushin my gums hard n ask if i feel pain or pressure.. i said pressure ba.. den HE STARTED TO CUT MY GUMS LO. jidan gao i don wanna tink abt dat its reali gross.. den i lalalla to myself n i still throw my slippers onto e floor n lie down cross legged hahaha n e dey all luffed at me..
Den he started drilling.. v noisy lor.. ZZZZzZZZzz de.. hao chi er.. he use alot of force leh! WA though i don feel much pain but he keep drillin n drillin.. on n off talk to me to ease my nervousness.. tink after dat he cleaned up my teeth or wat.. all along i kinda noe wat he's doin lar.. but he jus bluff me lo cos he scare i kan chiong.. den i feel thread in my mouth -_- KNS la.. den i ask him oooo he wanna sew le huh he say huh no ah dono wat whahahahahha v orbit lo he but so obvious lor.. feel e string inside my mouth here n dere.. when e needle poke into my gums i can feel it!! ITS PAIN! den i shrieked n he don believe its pain cos he tod numb le.. but dono y i reali feel pain.. ok, i beared wif dat too..
Everything finalli finish le.. i took out my glasses n look seh seh.. he ask me izit slpy.. i say no ah. i feel like im day dreamin.. aahahaha.. i ask him to gimme my tooth.. he passed to my bf cos he noe i will b turned off at e sight of e tooth.. n i jus realised durin e process he go n take a video of my surgery lor! dot si. i wun wanna c lor.. mayb after everything ba.. den he put my tooth into bleach.. n he said dat my tooth got gum stick to it so its damn damn gross..
When e tooth is clean.. i got a shock! ALAMAK! y so big! n its drilled into 2.. cos too big le canot get it out. Ok dats how my extraction of Wisdom Tooth goes.. scary.. given 7 days MC cos doc says im v stressed up.. 5 diff medications.. so.. gd luck to jun ming. wahahhahaha!
- Hearts All